Your thoughts on drugs and alcohol
"Drugs are bad, mm-kay?"
"All I need are cigarettes and alcohol!"
I have had my time with drugs in my younger days, but nothing harder than smoking weed. Yup, in my student days, and my early 20s, I was quite partial to a bit of skunk, and would spend time chilling and smoking with some good friends, whilst throwing down cards in a game of Netrunner, or rolling dice and trying to recall who we were fighting again. Don't get me wrong, I was not permenantly stoned off my tree like you see some degenerates wandering around are (you know the type, they usually tell you that cannabis should be legalised as it isn't addictive, whilst toking their 20th spliff in the day). Also, I would like to point out that I don't do it today. However, back then I enjoyed the numbing of the sensations and relaxing nature (and bizarrely didn't seem too peturbed by the paranoid episodes that it caused). Now, I have no desire to touch it again (the paranoid moments are a bit off putting when I am now managing to control my insecurities).
I had opportunities to do other drugs - whizz, E, etc, but never saw the appeal. One good friend told me that they worried about what I'd do if I ever took a trip, knowing how skewed my mind could be, and advised me to either never do one, or only do half with her having the other half to guide me. Strangely after being told that I had no desire to mess with my head like that.
As mentioned briefly, since coming to terms with my depressive episodes, I have avoided risking any chance of sparking up any negatives, or paranoia. This also links into my feelings on alcohol.
I like a drink - I like to get occasionally quite inebriated. I don't like getting in a state, and so have worked out how to try to keep control over my intake. Some drinks I love the taste of, but cannot drink due to the nature they bring out in me. One example is whiskey, which makes me angry, and somewhat aggressive. Perhaps this is due to me locking my dark thoughts away and trying to redirect them...perhaps whiskey manages to break a hole in the box where they reside, and they spill out. I don't know, but I have chosen a safe group of happy drinks. These are Guinness (or stout), red wine, and perry (pear cider). I can drink lager and bitter, but they make me groggy and morbid, so I tend to stick with my happy drinks.
Drinking in moderation is fine, but it is important to know when to stop. Sadly, looking at the disgraces on their hands and knees on a weekend some people do not